Sunday, August 30, 2009 8/30/2009 12:29:00 AM
lesson # 48-- inspired to how to be an adult
All right, attended the EXtraordinary GENeral MEEting.
EGm on sat and about 10 pple turned up... lucky there's Alfred to keep me company.. if not i would be eating the pratas and briyani alone. so many ppel i dunno and nv seen before. Edson's the only person that i knew too but he's busy. i'd rather to have him to talk to. He's so chubby!
ok.. so during the talk by Mr Tan our sch Principal, i suddenly felt as if i need to grow up. He talk abt having this structure in place so thatAlumni can grow and after that can help the school to move on with better quality (this one i add in myself, mr tan didn say it)
He said that the alumni is too young. pple like my age get into alumni with no experience and those who are in the alumni for so long has the experience and of course (have the responsibilkity and capability ) to grow the school and alumni. it's true that what mr tan said of the maturity level and the ideas that we younger pple give might be quite embarrassing if he thinks it's not workable. not him alone to reject the idea but meant perhaps pple of their age and understanding would think we are immatured to think of such ideasss...
like we'r 21 yet some of us are acting liek some 16-18 yr old kids. yes of course, this is the age of awkwardness too, not only the age of puberty or from 16 transiting to 18... or 12 to 13, 14.
turnning from teenage to adult is a difficult feat. requires a lot from us... a sense of responsibility maturity and the balance to keeping the image of an adult and yet able to enjoy the fun a teenage has.
have fun at the right time. be smart at the same time
Friday, August 28, 2009 8/28/2009 11:57:00 PM
sick of this world?
ahhh.. i feel so sick now. although the fever had subsided and the flu is on its way to recovery...i think my gastric is giving me prob... i dunno why. pangs of hunger led to gastric? and when that comes, i cant breathe..as if i had asthma.. as if my nose is blocked and i feel terrible. flatulence wind.. pain..
am i really inheriting what my mom is having? oh please i dun want. perhaps it's not inheritance but some term i read somewhere that says what the person is having, the other party will have the link.. the connection too.
i dunno what can help me now. no one... even my mom cant help me... i've ate the gastric medicine oready but it seems that the process is such a slow one.
i feel so lonely so sad to face all these by myself...sigh..
oh.. just a side track.. i din know my fren got into a rls after she got out. its good to see someone to couple with another. Congrats! but heyszzz when will i know? do i know him? haha
hmm.. den Ben Leong that time e spddate guy i wrote abt meeting him, i felt as if he's got something to tell me but he didnt... perhaps it wasnt time yet. after this msn talk with him, i felt something.. but not sure what... like? or perhaps i was bored... yeah.. should be. he said before that unless he knows a girl like him,, and he likes the girl, he will then take the initiative. but that's quite dumb though. how would e girl let you know she likes u before u show that u like her?
oh ya.. talking abt piano.. i've decided to take a break.. after much bad blood with B.oh well, he's muggle. so he doesnt know what i meant when he kept bugging me that time. hahaha! i have to find out the one at Square 2. i tot i saw it at 140...
but den, i saw this violin course at Wolfgang violin studio at UEsquare, and i was tempted. but it was quite ex.. theory is 180 for 10 lessons @ 45 mins. and pract is 165 for 4 lessons @ 30 mins.
i think i'll learn when i'm abit older. that's when i have a job to sustain this expensive learning.
Saturday, August 22, 2009 8/22/2009 10:37:00 PM
lesson # 47- shuffle your priority
i've decided to give up on my attendance to a pri school gathering. this gathering was supposed to be a farewell to hungwei our classmate as he will be going back to US i think... after 26th aug for studies.. i think..
havent met him and others for quite sometime but i guess i need to chiong my proposal draft by tonight. i'm really behind schedule. sad...
talking abt attending some fun activities, ytd talked to Hamzah abt 'priority' becos i was lamenting abt the fun events e biz sch of nus attended, the NUS Jam and HOp i think... den i saw this guy Lennard Neo, his life seemed to be filled with alot of fun.. becos he got super duper lots of fotos.. 1000++. i'm quite sad that i didnt make it for nus.. or even ntu.
it seems that i'm missing out on alot of fun for a 19-21 yr old life.
so hamzah came to comfort me that we gotta be contented and to knkow ur priorities, finish what is supposed to be finished before u really enjoy ur fun. oh well.. if it was me to be in nus, i doubt i can pass my year 1 subjects. becos i'm too tempted by the activities.. haha!!!
so i rather be a hermit for now, before i break open my shell to see the world again, and say hi to them.
Monday, August 17, 2009 8/17/2009 02:12:00 AM
lesson no. 46- you should go to hell
my dearest fren said, it's best not to have dual relationship with someone.
e.g. good fren... and biz partner
good fren... and student and teacher r.s.
this is true to a large extent, unless you are someone who doesn't mix personal life with work life.
however, i dun see it in my another fren. i'm seriously disappointed in him.
yes. this time... no generalization of noun. it's a him.
in the past, i used to think of him as someone with trendiness, great attitude and someone who's helpful.
but now.. as time is essence and time reveals one's personality and characteristics, i realised that he is not someone with great attitude or someone who's helpful with no motive.
and until now, i still hold on to the belief that Cynthia from principles of counselling, was so right. to satisfy his ego.
for to deeper extend, he's one petty guy. jin1 jin1 ji4 jiao4.
and he's cut out for a woman's mouth. he speaks without thinking. yi4 zhen1 jian4 xue3. he like to suan pple.
and he likes to bang on pple's weakness and use the weakness against the victims. i am foolishly, and shamefully one.
slam me for being defensive on the excuse i gave...hello! it's a fact! i seriously forgot my fone and who asked u to do your personal stuff just before my lesson was abt to start?? dun give me that bloody excuse that u tot i could call u. and still say that u do house chores which were important, unlike me, who doesnt do any house chores. pls la.. i know ur hse chores more impt.. so i guess ur 120 was not impt at all.
chasing me for money before e next lesson starts, scold me for complaining abt facebook to him. giving foolish comment and yet being angry for my comments abt his foolish comment.
suan pple...becos i stopped lesson with him, he asked me for or rather, "BORROW" the box of shuttlecocks for badminton... "since i have no time to practise badminton even". wth? what meaning is that?
the boxful of shuttles(more than 30 at least) are given by my coach. on what rightful basis should i "LEND " it to you!? those who dunno. shuttlecock are feathery stuff. once you hit hard with your racket, u spoil the feather..rendering it useless and finally end up in the dustbin.
he has his from his coach and trainings...so why should he be so thicked face to ask it from me! oh, just becos i no longer provide u your 120 for your salary?
go to hell.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009 8/04/2009 11:52:00 PM
lesson no 45-- dun leave a guilty trace
an apple a day keeps the doc away. But a rotten apple a day, makes you weaker by each day.
i know i shouldnt tell tales of bad happenings happened at home. but today, it did happened at my gma house and it's someone we know.. a house thief. erm.. own relative.. we suspect. but we havent got any evidence. so we cant say it's him(for general sake.. no meaning of any gender intended)
it's kinda sad that he stole my gma's gold and money. not all the gold but a few... trying to cover his crimes by leavin some gold behind.. thinking that my gma is old and a muddle-head. it's been over a month before my gma told my dad. how stupid of that person to leave some gold behind means leaving traces of evidence that the gold was stolen by someone we know. it's obvious u know..
yes.. too much of forensic show by the hong kong drama. hehe.we've learnt a few tipsi (in canto accent).
as we can learn from here, a person's character is hard to judge. we nv know who we can or cannot trust. keep ur valuables with you tight.. put into the bank and that's the safest...
sigh. it's saddening to know that someone so close to us.. to gma would betray gma's and our trust. how foolish that person is. it not only leave guilty traces for us to know, but in his heart as well. he's so guilt-ridden now..i bet..
and it spoils his image for his children. such role model is damned.
and so obvious that he rarely comes to visit my gma after that incident... damn that person. i'm so hating him now. but before anything becomes clear, i think we still cant judge this person... becos afterall...we havent caught him red handed.. and we decided not to...all for the sake of kinship...
gosh.. i'm appalled
Monday, August 3, 2009 8/03/2009 03:42:00 PM
lesson no. 44-- are we selfish?
suddenly i got this feeling of being selfish. that thought had been bugging me since young.. and only recently on sat.. i felt selfish... i never thought i was until last sat.
are we by nature, selfish? or is it that it's nurtured? yes, no doubt we're back to this long debated question of nature vs nurtured.
but i think it's nurtured...only for selfish. since we're talking abt only just one thing here.
still remembered that i poured my dad's tea on my bro when we were young. i meant to scare him.. but i was kinda dumb, din know that the water would spill out. perhaps he has been very naughty since young.. or perhaps i was jealous that my mom was favouring him.
and although my mom said she loved me more than my bro... i still doubt becos he's after all a male ( the oedipus complex thingey or the male and female thing.. and he's better at sucking up to my mom.. lol.. ok... not that ugly, but he knows how to make my mom happy), he acts cute at times. (*shudders), he is younger...and he had been showered with care since young... so that results in the 'spare the rod, spoil the child' syndrome.
jealousy resulted because there is no equality... perhaps i'm more concerned over equality than say being a selfish person.. yes u would say that i'm being very thick-skinned to cover up for what i said of myself just now. muahahaha!
but i guess if we are not, we might put ourselves at the disadvantage... esp when the society has evolved from a innocent village to a scheming city. you have no choice but to keep certain good stuff to urself and let a bit to others.
so you would say something about, what about friends?
friends.. best frens.. would be ok.. and of course... check out their personality... if they are worth it. i think my frens worth it.. and being a very kind person, i tend to give way to pple.. and i somba!
pple may not feel it.. or may not see it... i gave all my best in treating them well. i meant well and sincere.
so is it nature? maybe.. but it can be taught.. well it's often seen as being taught.
'civilization' made us who we are... and yes ironically, we are so 'civilized' that we forgot about the virtues of give and take, share and no malice...