I like myself

Saturday, March 28, 2009 3/28/2009 08:12:00 PM

lesson no. 16--- practicality vs obstacles

watned to watch Detroit Metal City on... tues. but ben changed his mind last min..and we end up eating at kopitiam in PS...and supposed to eat icecream from Gelare, cos it's half price on tues.
but end up eating some ice cream at Cafe Cartel. I ate... some pudding with vanilla ice cream.. but i think it's not good although it's reccommended.. i still prefer Udders, near my house.. it's just beside Uniited Square. I love their ice cream... Same as Gelato, that used to be in Daimaru, Meidi Ya. And i love 'strawberry champagne' from Haato, also in Liang court, Meidi Ya. ate that with yan.. too bad he dunno how to appreciate 'ice cream' lol!

ice cream has different kind and those lousy ice cream are so not rewarding to our tastebuds and hippocampus... (i think,, or is it hypothalamus? always cant distinguish these two..sigh)

ice cream like haagan daaz.. it's still ok i think.. not really nice anyway.. dunno why it got so many franchise. LOL

oh well, B& J also.. both are creamily milky.. in flavour. lol yes, self made words are like the best to describe things that has no proper word to describe... haha!

sigh, going for the best doesnt seems to be the best decision of all....practicality is what i always preach but it seems that i do not practice that...

Take for example, my bday... practicality doesnt come into pic at all..and instead, expenditure...or in another words, being a splurge (that's the word) is what i'm acting...

total expenditure exceeds 1200... sigh... that's super ex...wt *beep*,. lol

hellow.. that's just the buffet itself.. so saddening... Ben told me that it's not worth it.. but hellow. it's my 21st!?

i want to be special and/or special occasion that is memorable. i dun want to have parties like others, who would go clubbing for party, or well.. i dunnoooo

i saw pics of my fellow srjcians's 21st bday and ALL! and i mean it, all held in their house!! but seriously, my house is not as nice as theirs and not as large as theirs... they had a simple gathering of good friends...

but me... hmmm i seriously doubt i even had that many close friends... i kinda feel sad upon pondering things like this. This is not i want in my life. am i even stereotyping myself?? am i putting values and viewpoints from what the world gives into myself?

seriously, i feel like i'm some kind of 2 face. or is it that i have a mood that changes real quick? *not mood, but characteristics, perhaps?*

i want to have a party where all my good frens attend.. but in reality, i feel like they are mere acquaintances.. like rebecca, jooleng and ariel... they are frens i made in jcu...and did projects before.. but i feel so wierd talking to them. like i'm the odd one out.

i guess i'm just like those hi-bye pple... that means, pple may think that i'm sociable, i' talk to alot of new pple and have a lot of new frens.. but its not actually.. it's all on the surface. i'm just an empty shell. only a few close frens.. but still not as close as i'm with my mom, my best fren... cos prob she's my mom..so whatever i say, she will just listen and correct me without me feeling embarassed..and to lose a friend. a fren.. if you offend them, and they dun understand... they are gone forever...even if you bow your head to the lowest level.. your pride has already been hurt, and the friendship is already scarred...not like before.... so it's like you're losing at both ends.
ah, you may say, ' lose then lose la. i can make more friends...'
ya no doubt, but in my opinion, to be practical, that means losing a little pride to keep in touch with people who might be of help to you in the future.

for me, i have a small social circle... and ben, he's like got the largest social circle i've ever seen at his age?? iono..
he knows gangsters, frens who work in sentosa, frens work in f and b... from different schools.. etc...

i guess i'm taking my life too seriously.. but that's me right? i think i need to sit down someday after exam to really plan what to do with my life... like, having a serious life yet fun filled...

qy going for YOg youth Games Olympics as volunteer.. with her frens i think... howcome they got such lobang...

and i wonder if i can take part. i think i think too much.. always planning first, when there's actually no need for it. i can just take part if i want... but... what i'm afraid again,,... *sigh* being alone.... dunno how to be someone with all smiles.. and with a great personality so that pple can enjoy my company and joke with me.. i'm too serious....

sigh... i'm lamenting again.

Sunday, March 22, 2009 3/22/2009 11:15:00 PM

lesson no. 15- mother's fault if the child is bad, or rather both?

erm. i kinda forgot what i wanted to say.... oh yes.. eating healthily stems from parent's teaching

besides that, the way you teach a child, the way you carry yourself and the way you talk to the kids are very important as that imprints heavily on the kids mind and characteristics..etc..

like on wed, i welcome my aunt to singapore by bringing her and her kids to VE... becos she was interested in things that will help herself, her husband and the kids... btw.. she's my dad's youngest bro's wife...

and yup, the kids were angels when they listen to you.. but when there's serious bizness going on, that is a when a very respectable man talking seriously abt the health of those who took the pulse analysis, kids who dun listen get on my nerves. even more so when my partner, mel and i were doing demo and explaining the details to my aunt.

i told the kids that they will talk later.. but it seemed that it fell on deaf earsssss. all three butt in like they are attending some class. raising hands and telling us what they feel. BUT HELLO!

AT A WRONG TIME! damn it. i no choice gotta smile... that's ok fine...

yes fine.... but not when i'm explaining and the kid taking the file and trying to put on my head and even dropping on the floor.

the mom's there and i cant tell the kid not to play... like with a serious tone! i have to keep my calm posture.. but...i know very well that i was SUPER SUPER IRRITATED BY THEM!!!

bloody hell.. seriously.. the eldest and the youngest are like the guai ones... occasionally butt in a bit.... that's still ok.. but not when the 2nd, the most dumb one who doesnt know that i'm angry!?

the 3rd one is clever..becos when mel was talking to the mom, she butt in, i made a sign that means 'shh, keep quiet first', she nodded her head and kept quiet. how clever right?

but not the 2nd one...damn it i said, dun play she kept playing. i told her to keep quiet, she kept 发小姐脾气，板一幅丑脸。 wth, she think what? she very guai, very 千斤小姐 ah? she damn dumb la, shooting off irrelevant questionssss at the wrong timing....

she's stubborn too.. keep insisting that she wants me to sit in abit so mel can 'cuddle' in to get warmth (cos of the cold temperature). i try to explain things to her she dun listen and she dun want to listen... argh!!!

worst off, the big sister... sigh.. she is suuuuuuuuupppppppppppppppeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr unhealthy

at SUCH YOUNG AGE! guess what she eats...

ONLY CHICKEN..... NO VEGES, LITTLE WATER CONSUMPTION, PROCESSED FOOD.... etc(you can roughly guess other kinds of food she eats)

and the mom talks to her....ask her to give 'face' to her by eating 1 vege , or drink 2 mouthful of soups... etc..

and cos she's stubborn, she only insist that she eats food that are in the category 'chicken'
she drinks soda...

and who's fault is that??? it's not entirely her fault that she's that 'stubborn', refusing to eat healthy food

rather... it's like 80% of the fault lies on the mom??
1-- she claims that she gives them eat healthy food.. she herself is into healthy food, she drinks she use healthy stuff... even eating homegrown veges by her own mom...

2- but, the way she teaches her children, gives her children the misconception that she can be overrided. they would go over her head and not listen to her despite her being 苦口婆心.
she doesnt scold i guess..cos i think she cant bear to see her 3 qian jin cry... please la... heartpain to see kids cry is one thing, teaching the correct values, eating habits, dressing(another thing i feel like complaining abt...), viewpoints.... etc..... are another thing

she mixed everything up and crying over spilled milk is so no use? i know or i guess , i think she teared during the journey from VE to chinatown..

***ok, i kinda admit that my mom, and me a little were a bit too sacarstic on our words... we were talking abt her daughter's diet non stop from start to stop point... and she was like kinda helpless when she sort of talked to us how was her daughter's diet... ***

but i thought we were just 'discussing' on how to improve her diet... and alll.. she shld seriously be more open minded...if she really wants for the betterment of her daughter's health..

the nutritionist said untill very jia lat abt her daughter's diet... implications in the future when she starts puberty... and upon hearing that, i myself was shocked tooo.. at first the daughter's diet and her implication (he said that she's got the tendency to be anorexic) and 2nd, at myself..

i shld keep in track of my diet too..no more tea..no more cold(liang) stuff... i'm weak too.. look at my skin and every part of me..i feel bad... sigh

3. she's not open to new stuff... she's like finding clothes for her daughter that resembles kids from the poorer neighbourhood.. please lor.. if i am poor, i'll rather buy clothes that will show the kids maturity ...that is right kind of clothes for kids at the right age.... they are like 10,12,13 oready? and yet the clothes they wear got cartoons and the materials are like shabby?? and who asked her to keep feeding the 3rd one until there's a big 'pregnant look a like' tummy and when buying clothes, dun want to show the tummy? if dun want to have the tummy, try to cut down on oily food.. if not..accept the fact...just look at the nicer part of the clothes rather than focusing on the tummy?

4. the moral and values she teaches her daughter werent totally wrong..but she should teach her daughter to show the values atthe right time??
my dad is not like some chee ko pek ok? he's just being a little loud, sacarstic in a joking manner, and with eyes that's so big that you thought you kena arrowed by him??

my dad merely bent down to talk to the 2nd daughter, the 2nd daughter immediately siam like my dad is scaring her with a 'boo'. she's like, 'disgusted' or rather got the look of that on her face when my dad talks to her.. she runs behind her mom, and give the scared and angry look..

wth...extra la the 2nd one...

i swear that i'll teach my kids properly man.. be confident but not over until he';s unruly and speaks with no manners with the elders... and to be obedient when they need to. i'll buy him(oh, in general terms, him and her) nice clothes.. good quality... like every singaporean kids.. haha!! but not as many as some.. cos they willl grow out of them.. and i'll let them learn music... VIOLIN! lol!!

and to teach them values i've learnt.. and i myself be a good role model... oh, and let them eat healthily... wow.. such heavy responsibilities!!!

kekeke! all right, gotta go back to study what i'm supposed to do.. :P

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 3/18/2009 11:16:00 PM

lesson #14-- cherish ur loved ones before they are nt around

watched Departures on thursday night at 945pm with ben..and damn it it was soooo touching that i cried twice!

it's a jap movie that talks about this guy who was in an orchestra playing cello but the orchestra disbanded and he's left with no job. So he found an advert on the newspaper that says 'departure' and was in jap, so he thought it is some tourguide job. He went to the place called NK Agent. in the end, the boss said he's hired. and the first case he undertake was super gross and terrible for a first timer like him. But as he continue this job, he found meaning to it and he was happy despite his wife, and friends despise him due to the nature of the job.

helping pple to depart peacefully is such a noble job and yet nobody understood. when his wife followed him to his destination of job, she finally understood why his job was so meaningful that he insisted on continuing the job. helping others, you felt it was like a job, but not so sad.

when it is the turn of your own kin departing, you will sense the heart ache and being in charge of helping them to depart is even worst becos you're so near to him and the last time you see him would be now. whats more in this show, the perpetrator was helping his long lost dad to depart and the part when i really teared was when he finally see the true face of his father (after washing up) and hating him all along was wrong because he learnt the truth that his father was quite pathetic too.

it's been a long time since such good quality movie has emerged. no wonder it's 4-4.5 for the good review. so far, i think no other american movie can beat this meaningful movie.

i like the music featured in the show. it's very musical and the scenery was very beautiful. i'm in love with this movie. haha!!

it is an inspiring movie because it makes us stop and think about death and how we can make our lives better by making other pple's lives better. to make pple look peaceful when they depart is the last thing wecan all do for them and the living kins.

it's good if we can make good use of our living times before we all depart peacefully. and it would be better if we can make everyone happy before we have any regrets at that dying moment.

btw,, jap movie like this is a good portrayal of the dead. unlike those chinese movies, always portray the dead, the coffins and the burial rituals as very scary and a bane to talk about it. and sometimes it will portray as they wil come back to haunt the livings...

so bad of the chinese lo. and i seriously think that the chinese are terrible... as in china chinese... i'm sorry if i said anything offensive but it's the truth... they would do many things we all cannot predict. like the newpaper news, the china chinese actually killied his long time best buddy for money, when the victim was actually not rich. sigh...

Sunday, March 15, 2009 3/15/2009 10:47:00 PM

lesson no. 13- be appreciative, esp the past

searched for songs of Cliff Richard thanks to my mom. :D

and i came across songs like,

theme for a dream and outsider. and looking at cliff richard, makes me feel that i should live in the past, rather than now.. the 21st century. i oso came across ricky nelson for songs like

I will follow you (a song jackie chan sang in his movie where he was naked, and siinging to the ladies that walked past him) lol!, then i'm sorry, byebye love, someday you'll want me to want you, and unchained melody.

The 50s-80s life as well as the songs were just so simple and so fun as compared to now... complicated, isolated, little interaction...and stressful!

and seriously, the guys in the past are all so refined and handsome! lol!!

no wonder girls go so crazy over them in the past.

that sets me thinking that time passed damn fast and good things need to be savoured before it expires.. and normally good time flies... those were the good ol' days!

although the technology now is so way better than the past, i think the quality of life the happiness in life were like simple bliss... understanding of things ..and relationships are so clean and clear..

of course, that's subjective. if i were to choose now. i'll go for the past. esp marvel comics from the past. they were classics! they are precious now.. cos it's going to 'extinct' soon.

look at the colour, the drawings, the words, the storyline, the material, were so simple yet so enjoyable to read, touch and smell. (yes the paper smell, while it's fresh, not the rotting ones. :P)

even the trains, like singapore's one... although the new one is so attractive, cos of the lighting and the material used, i still like the old one...the bus too.. i once took 851 that had the old comfy, big cushioned seats and below is the pict. :D

oh well, since i cant this fact, i think i'll just have to rely on my parents and youtube to relinquish those nice music era... seriously, nowaday's music is kinda terrible..

with those clashing instruments that dont compliment well... so torturous to the ear.. lol!!

but i dun deny the fact that some songs are still nice...eg

Travis-- closer.
makes me feel for it. haha!! if Dinnie is reading, she'll probably wonder why i dun want to put it on facebook (she said tag any songs that we feel for...etc) haha!!

i guess we all need to appreciate what was in the past that will lead to today.. be grateful for everyday we lived.
:D

*play the video below first before you read the lyrics. :)

Travis-- Closer

I've had enough
Of this parade
I'm thinking of
The words to say
We open up
Unfinished parts
Broken up
It's so mellow

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Keep waking up (waking up)
Without you here (without you here)
Another day (another day)
Another year (another year)
I seek the truth (seek the truth)
We set apart (we set apart)
Second base
A second chance (a second chance)

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Closer, closer
Closer, closer

Saturday, March 14, 2009 3/14/2009 12:01:00 AM

lesson no. 12--- dress up for the right occasion

right...went to sentosa and how nice of Dina, the sales cooordinator to bring mom and i to Palawan beach, The Islanders i think... where there is this space with seats...

and there's the beach just beside it. really nice. and you can swim, play volley ball, frisbee! and captains ball.. and soccer..and more!!! yay!

yeap./.. on that day, i'm going to go down there early... to play first..if anyone indicating to me in the invitation email are playing. :D

the dinner would start from 5 to 10... pm that is.. and there will be a appetizer, salad, main course, action station and hmm ya.. dessert.

Then..............tada!! my cake!!!! it's no ordinary cake you know!!!??? It's from

PATISSIER!!!!!

yes, the one at ann siang and mohammed sultan!! they are like super famous now... office workers would go there during lunch to buy at least 1 piece of delicious, mouth watering and full of flavour fulfilling cake!

I've yet to decide which cake yet.. but it's gonna be a big hit among those who has not eaten such high classed, and full of quality cake! no i am not exaggerating.. but it's the fact!

taste it and you'll change your frequent patronized cake shop to THIS!!!

PATISSIER!!!!

oh my god.. i'm so excited now!! oh my oh my... if there's no dessert for the buffet i'm ordering from sentosa, i'll definitely asked the patissiers to bake assorted cakes.. and wow!

ok

so yeah... pple who wants to have a hell lot of fun on the beach, come early!!! have fun swimming and sun tanning...

so the theme for the party would be...........

**drums roll**

(jazz)party by the beach!

i put jazz cos that's what is the main gist of the party, but of course, i put in inverted commas becos it's the music that will make the whole atmosphere feel jazz-y...
haha!

den the dress code

would be hmm i dunno how to say but it would be like those nice high social class people taking a drink and mingling around, talking. they normally wear nice dress like there are at fashion social gathering. or those jewellery social gatherin.

lol!!

but of course, that's the extreme end. so if you want to wear those hawaii dress....you're welcome to do so.. cos it's by the beach.. dress as if some ang moh would be there... loL!! (when it's not) LOL!!!

yeap.. decoration wise.. i'll have to rack my brains again.. .Zzzz

ok. so what can we learn from here? dress nice and fit the atmosphere

Thursday, March 12, 2009 3/12/2009 10:44:00 PM

lesson no. 11--- plan ahead, be prepared

going down to sentosa tmr to recce the place for my bday party. if it's not a good area, i'll prob go for east coast park chalet.. those red bricks you see while cycling down the pathway along the east coast park..

but haha, checked until now... there's no website that is regarding the booking of the chalet.. oh well.. meanwhile, i'll rack my brains again... i was thinking of going back to sr to celebrate. hahah!

cos they recently renovated the area besides canteen and in between canteen and hall.. whick is not sheltered

and they use wood planks to do those standing tables or what u called reception tables???

and it's better looking now as compared to my year...it's kinda modernized.. haha

but who would want to come to schooL!?! and the school might not even allow...cos it's a hol..ZZZZzzzzZZz

if not..sian..settled at some restaurant le..

which i so dun want?!

anyway, i so want to ask my close frens to help me out on the day of my bday, but i feel so wierd and bad to do that! but becos they are my close frens, then i dare to write this sentence.. LOL!!!

ok...
i felt rather sensitive nowadays..for dunno what reason.. perhaps the many events that happened recently...sigh...

so in order not to face such wierd events int he future..or rather, to face them readily, always have this prepared feeling that you might get chided for speaking without thinking.. or course.. that's the 2nd option..1st option--- be prepared not to say wrong things at the wrong time, to the wrong target..

Saturday, March 7, 2009 3/07/2009 09:13:00 PM

lesson no.10-- have fun while you can!

went to dbl o on wed night cos it was ladies' night..

but the music in the clubbing room was bad.. according to adeline, thurs' r and b was better.. well.. i guess i'll check out there again on some other thurs with ade and jessica. yeah! haha!

so in the end, lilian, oksana, stephanie and her bf, adeline, diana, jessie, annie and me went there.

and there's a guy who tried to get close to lilian.. lol!! dancing super close. .and even hugged her waist from the back. lol!

*whistles*

annie wore like she's going to the countryside.. very beautiful

jessie wore laced dress and it's like she's some rich girl. haha!!

lilian wore as if she's going for some wedding dinner.. haha

oksana wore like she's going to meet up with friends for some dance class (cos she's kinda like hip hop)

adeline wore like she's going to market.. *falls off the chair* she said it's easier to dance with flat sole shoes... and that almost bareback top, i tot she got better clothes...

den, stephanie wore like she's really going for clubbin... lol.. but she smokes.. and that made her seems like some... well that way.. hehehe :D

den, me.. i wore like i'm some mountain tortoise... although i was wearing heels, and i am tall... among the clubbers, i oversee many heads. muahahhaha! but i thought i could wear a better top... my top was kinda short.. and it made me felt insecure..cos of my bulging ....you know what..

now , or rather.. yesterday.. or the night before yesterday, surprisely, mom and me went to PP, and we both bought clothes from bossini. i like my checkered top and this top that is long and require one to wear leggings only.. woohoo!

actually we went there for the Giant la. haha!!!

ok.. and today went for just 1 hour of alumni meeting....surprisingly haha! and after that went to meet Ben for lesson.. but walao.. so late then come...-_-. and i ate this teppanyaki at the Raffles city food court. it was super nice!!! :D and cheap!

after lesson... we talked quite a bit... he told me how guys jio girls.. wow.. and i'm seriously amazed by his way of jio-ing girls and what guys would normally do.

i cant believe.... so that's how guys think.. hahaha...

after that. walked around and saw my ex srjcian frens... one is also called Ben... and the other is called Devin... Devin's skin was nice.. glowing.. wow.. if only i can have his kind of skin...

lol.

ok.. i feel like going out everyday..haha! cos prob... i thnk it's still the first week of school..so i thought i better go out with my friends asap this week.. :D

yay.. ...

tmr going out to meet ben and his friends.. yay.meet new frens.. :D

Friday, March 6, 2009 3/06/2009 01:14:00 AM

lesson no. 9--- justice prevails

A scene where there's only 1 debator on each side, defending their case to prove their innocence and their reasons for their actions and words spoken.

I stand by here, looking at this issue objectively. and the reason for this debate is because, I simply miss my days of being a debator. Since this is an opportunity, i thought i'll give it a shot. :D

Dear adjudicators, may i present to you evidence of the debate today? please refer.

****

(2.10pm)QY- hey i may nt b coming to stats clss today cos something crop up at home. i'm stucked at home now.

(3.10pm) QY- inform me when there's a break. tell u all what happened later!

{ btw, the break started at 250pm and ended at 310pm}

(** i cant rmb the timing afterwards, but it's about 30 mins later??) Qy- hey u nvr inform me when there's a break?

(around, 4???) YL-Hey...saw coco's msg by u... i din see ur msg on my fon. so sorry! U angry with me? really sorry! what happened how come u not comin w us?

QY- NOT GOING LE LA SO LATE ALREADY I ASK U TO INFORM ME FOR THE FIRST BREAK. SELFISH PPL NVR CARE ABT ME. IM NOT GOING CLUBBING WITH YOU ALL TONITE LE.

YL- But i heard from jessie tht u're nt coming for afternoon class. so i assume tht u're going for night. and i seriously nv check my fone. only just now...

QY- dun make BASELESS assumptions. n u shld know better than ALL of them tht i hv a b.day dinner w my frens tonite so u shld know i can't go for nite class! i dun want to miss stats but something really happned at home that's y i asked u all to inform me for 1st break. I only said MAY nt be gg to school cos i dunno when will i be able to GET OUT of home

YL- I seriously am busy writing down notes, in fact everyone are writing. I believe jessie msged u abt e first break. But u din reply. and since we are writing down notes, we can lend to u and tell u e essential info.

QY- That's called selfish. How long it takes to send a msg? 1min. N cant ur copy from others. I just need ONE PERSON TO REPLY ME N GIVE ME THE NECESSARY INFORMATION. i could hv go into class at about 3.20pm if ONLY ONE OF U HAD REPLIED ME. Then at least i know i dun hv to wait for 1st break since it was over. selfish ppl... that's y pple always say we can't make BEST FRIENDS IN UNI. luckily i nvr treat you all as my best frens all these while!

YL- LIKE I TOLD U, I DIDN'T TOUCH MY HANDPHONE SINCE I COME TO CLASS! so u did [i didn't] even look at ur msg. U could actually come to school right after u finish ur stuff at home. and why would u rather listen to hersays? U do noe tht by sayin tht last sentence is very hurtful to me and perhaps other frens?

YL- and if i were selfish, would i even bother to msg u during class?

QY- Cos u want to argue for urself. None of u even asked me wad happened at home. I'm very disappointed w the kind of frens i hv made all these while**********

ladie's and gentleman, may i yeelee, stand to represent the opposition to analyse the proposition's irrational arguments today and show you how flawed the arguments are.

Ladies and Gentleman, i have two contentions today.

The first one would be that the opposition is not guilty for the statement of selfish.
The 2nd one would be, passing judgement too quickly does not warrant one free from guilt. and guilty of what ladies and gentlemen (L&G), it's being guilty of the word 'friends'.

what does guilty play in this part? That is guilty of not fulfilling what the proposition has defined of friends. in another words, the prop is being contradictory, which i will furtehr elaborate in my arguments below.

as you all can see, what we can infer from proposition's definition of friends, is that frens has to be there for them when times are good and bad. Frens are there to help one another and in this scenario or school's scenario, to help inform one another of venues of studies, time, informing of teacher of the reason of absence, to help take notes, to be CONCERNED over the absence of frens, and to empathise with them, putting oneself in their shoes and act according to the rules and values of what a friend in all situations across all races and culture would do.

CONCERNED' in this context would be to find out what happened to their friends that caused their lateness and to feel panicky..or worried why such impt event, frens are not here for such a long time........

i would not continue lest audiences would be wondering if i've gone to the proposition side .

*audience laughs*

L&G, as u can see abve, the opposition hasnt not got the slightest idea that the prop would be late due to something happening in her house because she didnt check her hp. and being very eager to note what the teacher's lecturing, she pays full attention, hoping that she would capture all the words said, and aid her in getting a better grade this time. and of course!

L&G, with the initial idea that the prop will be late as usual, she believes that she has to listen harder, so she can make sure she has all the essential information to provide when the prop comes.

along this direction, the opp did not think much.

she was then shown by Coco, rgding a msg stating how angry ws the prop with the opp not replying her msg. eagerly, the opp read the msg on her hp, and explains herself.

However L&G, opp ws wrongly accused of being a selfish person, not caring abt her friend.

upon reading her msg, about 'something happened at home', the opp did not dare to ask the prop what happened. What flashed across the mind was something terrible that she thought had happened to her family, e.g. (touch wood) someone fainted and needs to go the hospital, or someone got into a serious accident'.

L&G, please justify this thought the opp had, and see if this is a reasonable thought. and she believes tat by not asking about it would mean to respect the prop's privacy.

ok, L&G, Let's just assume that all are fine with her family, but something else cropped up. I would really want to find out too, but wouldnt a face 2 face talk be a better way to understand the whole thing, rather than spending money on msging each other, and spending away your attention, when you should not.

quoting from above,' N cant ur copy from others' , 'i could have go into class at 3.20pm'

L&G, would copying others means we're writing all of the essential information down? is the 'other's' as caring as the prop's friends (including the opp) to copy down for you what are the essentials? i doubt they even noe if you exist. pardon my straightforwardness my dear adjudicators but isnt it obvious that only friends would be more meticulous than the classmates? would frens of fren do that for someone they are not close to?

L&G, the break starts at 250pm. and class starts at 2pm. msg was sent out at 3.10pm and 2.10pm respectively... if the opp were to constantly check her hp, she would have replied the first 2.10pm msg immediately, if not... about 40 mins later. that is the time difference between msg sent and the break time. However, opp did not as she was busy with the stats questions . So the break ended at 3.10 and the prop sent a msg at 310 asking the opp to tell her when was the break.

quoting from above, " hey i may nt b coming to stats clss today cos something crop up at home. i'm stucked at home now."

ofcourse, whoever read this msg would have the first thought to be like this: " huh? what happened? how come you're NOT coming to class?"

naturally, the prop would send another msg immediately, CLARIFYING that it's a MAY and not a NOT. and at this time, she would also ask the opp to tell her when is the first break.

Now L&G, after the above msg, prop began to blame on opp that she is selfish for not sending one message. and prop claimed that she would be in school at 3.20pm if opp had replied her.

at this time, i would liek to let L&G know that the Opp knows that prop would rather come in during class breaks rather than coming in when the lesson is going on. So if the prop had read the msg, she would of course, send a msg even before the 2nd msg at 3.10pm comes. and like i said, unfortunately, the opp did not even take her phone out of her bag.

However, L&G, prop could have come to school immediately after she settled her issue at home and not wait for one person's msg, or rather two msgs. she could have come to our class to check out through the window. Or she could call if she was really desperate.

Quoting from her blog, "It's a class i really dun wish to miss...but i could have at least attended the SECOND HALF of the tutorial IF NOT FOR THE UNBOTHERED ATTITUDE FROM MY SUPPOSEDLY 'GOOD FRIENDS'...I DIDN'T GET TO ATTEND THE ENTIRE CLASS! " and above, " i dun want to miss stats but something really happned at home."

so can we say that the prop was contradicting herself by saying on one side that she dun want to miss stats, and on the other side, not COMING IN for stats class, because she felt it was embarrassing for being late? or what else? tell me prop! since the prop was already late, why extend the lateness?

But L&G, can we pause a little while and weigh the pros and cons? is stats more important or the pride, the 'face' is more impt? since the prop had missed about 1 hour's lesson, she could have come in right after she arrived at school and not wait in the school until there's a 2nd break, or worst, until the class ended.

A transition from the first contention, i'll like to quote from her blog

"it's Lilin's 21st Birthday today! Her present is w me...and EVEN IF her present is not w me, I WILL STILL CHOOSE TO GO FOR THE CELEBRATION! THIS IS CALLED BEST FRIEND...YOU DON'T LOVE OR CARE FOR YOURSELF MORE THAN YOUR BEST FRIEND!"

L&G, i wont be questioning the prop what constitutes of a 'best friend' or what are the traits of a best friend should be because, everyone knows that 21st bday marks the person's milestone in life and not going for it would be rather rude.

Let's just all put ourselves in the shoes of the prop, L&G. imagine that you had something terrible happening to you but enough to still leave the house and attend the class, and go for a happy occasion in the night. Imagine, yourself coming to school and not attending the impt class because you're late and you feel so darn embarrassed. (pardon my lingo)

now, the class had ended, you're in school, accomplished nothing but feeling regretful. What now? no repeat of the lesson cos you're going to the happy occasion. what's next? Let's suggest, msging and calling your friends to meetup to discuss what have you missed and what are the impt points. but before that, allow me to remind you further, that you could ask the teacher what are the important topic she touched on.

there is no other better option but this one since you don't dare to go in.

L&G, let's change to another scenario.

imagine the same thing, that you had something terrible happening to you but enough to still leave the house and attend the class an go for a happy occasion in the night. Imagine, yourself coming to school, stepped into the room and realised that everyone is listening intently and suddenly moved their eyes and fixed on you. You feel damn embarassing. You looked at the teacher with guilt and said, 'sorry, I'm late.' Now, you quickly find the place, where your friends had already booked for you and sat down. Cool down and listen to what the teacher was saying. During pauses, you asked your friends to update you on what the teacher had talked about before you came. Let's just all assume that you came in at 330pm. you actually attended 1.5hour of lesson.

Of course, above scenario, you sent out msg at 3.10pm asking when is the break. but there's no reply except for one msg that came at about 312pm, saying that 'break just finished, you can come in.'

Now L&G, can you all figure out where's the difference?

One has to be spontaneous and not reliant. albeit the fact that 'best friends' are there to help out, but sometimes, human err too! and on the note that prop is very mindful about this lesson, all the more, she should have one thing in mind, to come to class asap.

L&G, just a slight failure of attention, leads to such disastrous misunderstanding, and tat signified something. high expectation that is. No doubt having a high expectation of a 'best friend' is normal. But how can it be just this one misunderstanding that triggers the sensitive button? Of course, there are events like the one that happened in prop's house that might trigger the sensitivity button but, would blaming the opp solve the issue of not able to attend the stats class?

would blaming the opp solve the issue of 'friendship'? would blaming the opp solve the issue of not replying the msg? etc....

To call the opp 'selfish' without finding out where the prob lies is selfish too. Not giving opportunity to explain the opp herself is tentative to pulling a blank at the opp's head instead of the chest. instant death that is.

just like what was quoted, "that's y pple always say we can't make BEST FRIENDS IN UNI. luckily i nvr treat you all as my best frens all these while! "

friends who saw this msg felt the stab right into their heart, so deeply that it damaged the aorta and the chambers. No any amount of repair was available then.

of course, being very clear-headed here, the opp strongly believes that the prop was distraught at that moment due to the sudden loom of incident happened at home and missing out on the 1st lesson of stats. But the 1st lecture touched on tutorial 1st-2nd or 3rd page.. and how we can construct a qnnaire, which we dont need to know much because it would be troublesome invalidating them. She also touched on the lab report outline.

i would seriously ask our dear adjudicators to consider this case seriously as the opp really wished that nothing of this would destroy the friendship between her and the prop. She very much treasures the prop's presence and her characteristics and rendering the fact that the opp had treated the prop as someone whom she will consult, confide and commit to.

and here, i rest my case, crossing fingers, and praying to God that this misunderstanding would clear up and hopefully, make us realised that none of us are like what the prop had thought. Amen.

I thank you all L&G for lending your ears and attention to judge this case.

*bows*

Sunday, March 1, 2009 3/01/2009 08:42:00 PM

lesson # 8-- why do we love

I read my friend's blog yesterday, and i realised how one can be so in their world of love that made them feel torturous if without their counterpart.

** i am not sure if the above sentence structure is grammatically correct...**

of course, he's so into a relationship that he's willing to sacrifice his sleep just to be with her...

then i ponder over his feelings behind the masked face... he is just so that fragile...

perhaps i was harsh and stupid to stab him with a jagged dagger, that left him thinking that i am unfriendly and brianless, and tactless....

i guess i was blind, to miss a potentially good friend just like that. Now that the ties between us has a knot becos it was once cut and tied up, i don't think we will be like before.

no more laughters.. well, instead, no more talking...
msn he didnt reply, msged him, he didnt reply....i wonder what's going in his brain...

perhaps the love relationship he's in hurt him and i'm like adding salt to his wounds..

Why do I even care about him? Why do human care for their peers? Why do we get to know people?
Why do we even get into relationship? Why do we love? Why do we sacrifice for those who are dear to us?

Why do i say 'why' to such shallow things when i could have said 'why' for my studies???

*angry with myself*

So WHY? becos we are human... becos we have amygdala, we have the fore brains, the occipital lobe and hippocampus.....becos we have all those brain structure......................

so why we love? to reward our hippocampus... i think..... i kinda forgot where is the rewarding part... of course ,to the standard of how our viewpoints are shaped and things we are exposed to.

so why do we sacrifice? Because we thought that by sacrificing oneself, that means gaining on the other side...

so why do i care about this friendship? because ... he's nice. because he's true, he's humourous and smart... and he's very gentleman. :)

so why do we love our friends? because they understand us, humour us, give wise words to us and stick by us when we are in trouble. these gratefulness made us feel that they are special.

But what about our family? same as above but we share the same traits same features, same blood... and more.......

saw Alyson's fotos on fb, she's 21 and her party was such a fun one!

families and relatives.. and friends..... oh my..

i wonder what kind of party will i do...

i want to have beach party....plus some food for thought... oh ..and of course games

but the people i'm going to invite are my friends who would fit the bill in playing games

how about relatives and family?? i wonder who i should call. cos i got sooooooooooo little relatives in singapore.

perhaps i shall re write my invitation list

paulvin family,

chachi family,

uncle baljit and family??

xiew li and ah beng uncle, shen shen and her three kids?

jiesheng and 2nd aunt.

ben yen, weiquan

annie,jesise,qy,wisnu, jy....perhaps rebecca's group...ya.. louis, esther, joel, corlizz, veronica???
(more to add), eric, jasmine?? these two i duno... then melissa, perhaps with her group of best friends like eileen, chris... lynette ng and group? How bout samantha ian and lynette?? i think i will... cos at least, i was once in their group. lol!

cy, hwee, jo, conrad, ws, xavier, handi, who else? can something knock my head to think?

adeline,simin, shyyan, yen-lin, rebecca, michelle, zeng xiong???, nicholas?? i dunno..

dinnie, shaun, jane?? i hope she is free..., who else am i close with in council???
den, i thought of inviting the alumni membersdeming, edson, chay lee, aikfong?/ all the old old pple? LOl!!! just joking just JOKING, JUST JOKING!!!

hahha!! ok, they are a bunch of great pple k?

den, yc......wilmer, jaspas--or justin u call him oh, do you think i shld invite the debators?? yeah.. i guess i will...gloria, lucas, angelina, hamzah,g lenn and kaiyim.. and tgt with ky, janessa...

so far, how many pple already, if i count my relatives and all... it's about 70..

wow! that's kinda many

If i dun organize any beach playing orientation game party.... but just dinner and games... i think i'll still stick to that pple i'm thinking of inviting...

ya.. i decided.. just wear really nice to my party.. and no more orientation games like jc times.
haha! kinda miss that...

right.. i started this entry like about 8 and still cant finish until now!
haha!

yeah..THEME?? perhaps... it's like, wearing nice clothes with colours that you think would suit the beautiful meadows , hills and trees...

haha!! that means, like those english show.. ah.. like the show 'sound of music'. elegant and very english?h hahahahah!!!

that means.. NO BLACK! white, pale yellow, pale green.., erm.. maroon?, grey?? i'll update on that when the time is nearer. loL!

gotta go! good night!

3/01/2009 04:41:00 PM

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3/01/2009 12:20:00 AM

lesson # 6--- time management

right... i wrote a whole lot of what i wanted to say using my hp.. but in the end, i clicked 'sign in' and all of what iwrote kena deleted!!!

damn it... well.. i mainly talked abt time management..

how i wasted my afternoon by baking a failed piece of dough that should turn out to be those puffy strudel crispy thin thing but mine was hard...like a stone

and it was messy

actually wanted to meet up with dinnie and perhaps yan, but she nearly lost her hp.. and she found out it was in her fren's car... lucky!

den, i talked abt not doing what i'm supposed to do durin hols... and now its end of semester, i cant believe school's opening!!! i dread school...even more so when i havent read my stats notes that i planned to do...

den, i talked abt hving fun with my girl friends... on wed.... ate waraku dining at central had fun talking and laughing...

den i talked abt waht we all ate..

and Qy spoke like some Love Professor...and annie associate professor of love psychology. ahaha!!!

must kowtow to qy, dun be deceived by her looks, she does noe alot of the role of a 'player' in a rlnshp/...and i took her for real! damn it..cos she told us its a joke.. hahah

well.. listen only lo...nothing i can do either.. hahaha

yeap... do have a good time management, that would be to arrange fun and not so fun things together... :)