Tuesday, June 16, 2009 6/16/2009 11:02:00 AM
lesson # 35- unspoken
To be on the alert at all times.
i thought i was a pro until 1 night i thought i could park the car in when it's so much smaller. and i kinda scratched and dented my dad's car... i feel so bad and i'm such a failure. i was too reckless or careless in a way
i thought i am always giving my best and i always show to dad that i'm the best.
now, it's quite difficult to gain his trust back.
is he my father, or an authoritative figure?? (oh btw, i always mixed up authoritative and authoritarian. just know that he's someone distant)
oh am i telling you my sadness again? this blog is not supposed to be like that. It should be objective.
but i guess, it sort of open the door to r/s we don't dare to speak about. and how other things like being alert, being wary, think before you speak etc... interact with this distant relationship
life is precarious