Friday, November 6, 2009 11/06/2009 04:23:00 PM
lesson #61-- touchy? release urself
It's just three days and i feel like blogging again. I know i shouldnt do this because it will only make me reliant of avenues such as blogging to release myself. Although i'm abit pent up in my feelings, i should be able to neutralise them through techniques such as CBT, psychotherapy or.. maybe.. desensitization.. or to talk to someone...
which eventually i did for the latter. I found Wire( not the real name of course!! if he's wire, i'll be plier. LOL!) , a guy whom i clicked quite well as a 'best' friend. he was from okcupid too. but yeah.. this is like a friend whom i can talk things out... i rarely have a male close friend.. although i just exchange certain views of life like a few times.
Finally, i released all my sadness through him. he gave me another perspective to what i can do to the issue that was bothering me. don't ask me unless u know what i'm talking about.'
i'm writing this blog because i felt there's a slight need to be expressive. I'm not very expressive through face to face talking... I'm good at 'speaking in my brain'. I like that because I was able to pause for as long as i want, so i get all my thoughts organized and to correct what i wanted to say before it sprout from my 'inner' vocal. I can also press the 'del' button if anything is of wrong speech.
Oh right.. back to track.. I've been feeling touchy these days. Knowing he's online to check his profile and not msging is so.. making me.... hmm.. feeling bad. I get angry easily at things i dun see right?? like my brother doing things with no sense of urgency when time calls. not think carefully of certain things before speaking?? Plus, i've been spending money on food.. because my cousin's husband came down without our notice.. and dunno why... we're spending alot becos of him.. yes.. we were treating him food!!
But he doesnt appreciates at all?? eat until 50+!!! Korean food eh! walao eh..
PATTISSIER'S CAKE!! such heavenly cake, he said all are ok.. about the same.. wtf?
seriously eh! everyone eats the cake, all will say it's good! even D agrees w me TOTALLY??
i'm so not goin to treat him anymore... waste my money.
then my work cannot be done becos of him?? i had to accompany him and mom to places so he wont get bored that kind.. zzzz
*plays the song--Touchy by A-Ha*
I really wish the cause of this touchy feeling can be solved... W said i should msg V first.. to see how things go... because guys could be prideful.. or maybe shy... but i still gotthis feeling that he's none of the above?? he's not!!!
heck la.. maybe later.. if i ever recall.. i'll just msg him. i don't like calling people...
erm. ya..plus no room for my expt!!! damn!! everything's slowing down!! damn it
GOD SAVE ME!!!!
oh ya.. religion.. praying... is a form of release