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If I still recall, my jc times were the most interesting period of my life. Not only because of council that gave me the edge to poke my nose into the biz of the school and students. It was because after graduating from srjc since 2006, I’ve grown so much that frequent visits back to the school as alumni makes me see that the 17-18 yr olds are merely still ‘kids’. I don’t know how it feels like to see my year in front of my eyes…but definitely, the batch of today all looked sooo young.. .LIKE xiao di di, xiao mei mei. Haha!
They all looked so immatured… like kids thought they knew a lot but in fact, they don’t in our eyes.. of adult. I’d say I’m already one though I refuse to admit to it. Haha!
It is true that we’ve all grown up. Still growing though because in life, there are stages that we have to pass and experience the later stages to understand more about life. When I was secondary 4, I used to think that sec 1 are noobs.. the elders know what I impt because of O level. As we proceed on to jc 1,I thought it was a new phase in life and I’m of higher grade than sec 4. Much cooler also because of the uniform and the thick books we carry in our arms when taking bus and train… oh… even cooler when walk along shopping malls such as Plaza Singapura. As I successfully move on to jc 2, I thought the j ones were dumb because they make noise during our impt year. But at the same time I felt I was dumb as well because I am ddoing last minute catching up and revision. But it all worth it because that’s the time you can at least try to rmb the sights and sounds while the days to Alevel were counting down. By then, it would have been end of school term and u’ll no longer a student.. a kid of a kind any more.
So as I left the school, and wandering here and there, at a loss dunno what to do because my grades were half a bucket ( in Chinese) I finally took up James Cook Uni Aus Sing.
During the first 2 yrs… you can say a lot of things had happened…tremendous changes were made in my life perspective as well as my own beloved srjc. haha
Met new friends, went through stress again and totally threw away the feelings and memories of how tough it was during the last few months of j2, struggling to catch up with my chem…
Ps.: In the end, my bio which was originally the best, became the worst out of the three core subj. all thanks to chem ah!. Wth!
So when I came back in 2007 as alumni member, I felt old. Like I no longer belong to srjc. Rather, I do not belong to the age of 17-18. Oh mygod!
What have I been doing these years?? I’m studying at 19.. 20…now 21 still studying… until 22.
Now that I’m an adult, going back made me felt like I cant connect with the kids anymore.
Perhaps I’ve missed out on a lot of my teenage years. But during the days of jc, I felt I was normal.. everyone’s normal because we are with our age group. I guess we felt that we’ve grown up.. know what we’re doing. Seriously!! We thought we’re cool.. we thought we’re special!!!
~Mika’s song- We are Golden starts playing~
We do not feel any oddities, no prob with mingling with people and what’s nice is.. .we have ccas to look forward to when homework is a bore, walk around school to look out for cute guys and to observe cool people. Oh. I also love walking the canteen. There used to be a lot of tables to accommodate to thousand of people but nowadays, its not seating but standing table. Canteen is a large open air area and many people would seat on the tables enjoying their breaks and lunch times and some would strum their guitar(love signs start popping out). Sometimes, class would gather and chit chat… a lot of social interaction happened at the canteen.
I used to have a lot of crushes when I was younger. It ranges from arts to sci stream and I even liked a guy next door. (class room that is)
But oh well.. that’s history.
Now my life seemed different. It’s no longer gathering of young friends kind of feeling.
It’s more of gathering of old frens whom I’ve not met for ages.. that in another words, means I’m old. My heart is no longer golden.. it’s rusty red…hha
Now I rarely meet up wit friends.. cant speak the same way a 20 year old girl.. or 21 … would speak…
Now I go online dating websites to meet friends.. go facebook to check out. .or if u want to say, stalk and keep updates of other people… it’s totally a life filled with no social interaction at all! Suddenly I felt Im a pathetic worm!
Talking abt interaction, I’m now so afraid of meeting people..because I’m scared that my straightforwardness is my weakness and I’ll make a fool out of myself next sat..
Yes I’m abt to meet up w this guy who’s 30 yr old?? I still cant believe that I got fren (male) of that age..
As in.. not usual hi bye.. but potential best fren that kind? Or bf that kind?? Gosh
All right.. I think I’m over imaginative.
Time to log off. ciao