Thursday, October 29, 2009 10/29/2009 11:57:00 PM
lesson # 57--happiness and unhappiness intertwine
ahhh.. did a few things today.. went to sr to get a deal. yay! but quite vexed over what to write for the e-invoice form... but told mel abt it.. and i'm quite happy that i actually got a deal from a school.
yay!
so i passed by the hall and saw the sc practising their so called 'dance moves' to the song by Mika-lollipop. i presumed they were councillors becos it's after school.. guess what???
it's O- M- G! they were TERRIBLE!! OMG!!! *runs around* it's like.. why has the standard of the sc dropped so much????!!!! i know!!
there's no US! THE 18TH!! the greatest sc of the history! ahh.. i had the itch to go up to them and say, 'heyo! practising you orientation dance moves?? cool! i'm ur senior councillor! it's great to see u guys!
*points to a guy whom i met during 2oth anniversary* hey you! u rmb right?? cool! could u show me ur moves again??? ''
so after they all finished.. i would start to show my 'leadership' by re-enacting what the 17th did to us.. of course it's to teach.. not scold like the 17th.
seriously.. the moves are not coordinated like we did?? we were 99% perfect~! they were like 30%.
They should practice before they have the mass practice. plus they were not enthusiastic abt it
it's lollipop eh!! u need to have more enjoyment when dancing! the moves are simple.. that's ok.. but they were so dead?? gosh./ if i'm the freshmen, i wonder if i've entered a zombie school!
oh ya.. if i compare our dance moves with theirs, please we were much more coordinated and spunky oK!?
long live 18th~~!!
so i left in amusement to meet my mom at Ion Orchard and we toured around the b4 food mall. it's great~
but the food at food opera sucked. don't ever buy popiah or the chee cheong fun. popiah skin was not thin and 'Q' enough.. it's one word.. disgusting
then went to buy this panacotta 'ice cream' i dunno what it's called... it's from marvellous cream i think.. it's super sweet.. urgh! but it'snice though.... 4.90 a cup. relatively bigger than usual cup size for ice cream
then bought this jap steamed cake.. it's 4 per piece.. and it's quite all right.. like the steamed sweet beans..
then we went to UNIQLO!
yay!! bought a sleeveles shirt today... i saw this brand on net before they opened their store in Ion Orchard.. i'm so proud that i knew that before they open.. hehehe! i knew abt their tank tops with instant bra inside.. it's really convenient for those girls like showing their tits.. it's a cover for their disgusting fad abt showingtheir...
wanted to shop further but mom said her leg hurts...
finally, it's night time. the time i always look forward to ever since that literature guy appeared in my life. the night always seem so short when i chat with him... but ytd and today seemed harsh becos we talked abt getting a local u cert is recognised rather than a priv u cert...
i seriously hate to talk abt this topic becos i dun like to go back to study after 2 years.. plus the syllabus has already changed. and so what if i go bck.. i am wasting my time spending my money..again...after splurging on my 6420 per trimester fee for 3 yrs???
wth? more of like wt (abcde_)
i dun want to go back to that sad pathetic past of mine now. and now he's digging it... i feel so vexed! i feel so bad that i made him feel bad until he said change topic
he may be of different race but it's the intelligence and the lit that attracts me. and its the reason that i sleep late nowadays..
another one's on sat.. not met too. maybe we'll hit off well but oh well.. let's just speak as fren... not expecting anything becos he's 30 and someone of a diff personality from me..
although iclick well with him, i dun click well with mr lit.. but i feel more for mr lit.
ahh.. well.. perhaps i'll not have that feeling i were to meet him in real life... becos of his heritage features.. hahahahaha!
watched Time story at 7 and the character talked abt life having many contradiction... the fake seems real and the real seems fake.. we may like the fake but we should like the real even if the fake and the real are the same person.
i should really pluck myself out of this deep pit i'm about to fall in
so yah if that's too deep, tell me.. i'll add an e.g. now i'm too tired to do it...
but anyway. i'm excited abt sat. haha!
oh.. thanks D for ur kind gesture, i reallly appreciates that.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 10/28/2009 12:27:00 AM
lesson #56- it's time to wake up from your sweet dreams
right, literature students are good lovers-to-be. but as time passes by, the novelty of lit would soon be just a passing remark by the so called lover.
Maybe i shouldnt be so involved in this literature flirtation. or rather.. accepting blindly of that kind of words from him.
like i asked what are you doing, he said, deep in thought of you.
it's just a few days of knowing him... and he would say things like, your pic is like the sun shining with flower of crimson colour.. something along that line
it does makes ur heart flutter and ur soul floating on cloud nine.. but reality check please.
before you even get into any r/s, it's best that both of you needa spend quality time as friends, knowing each other like thoroughly before deciding whether u want to be with him or not.
Even more so if you're seeing many other male frens.. it's better to put your bet wisely. hehe!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009 10/27/2009 12:03:00 AM
lesson 55- precious past
If I still recall, my jc times were the most interesting period of my life. Not only because of council that gave me the edge to poke my nose into the biz of the school and students. It was because after graduating from srjc since 2006, I’ve grown so much that frequent visits back to the school as alumni makes me see that the 17-18 yr olds are merely still ‘kids’. I don’t know how it feels like to see my year in front of my eyes…but definitely, the batch of today all looked sooo young.. .LIKE xiao di di, xiao mei mei. Haha!
They all looked so immatured… like kids thought they knew a lot but in fact, they don’t in our eyes.. of adult. I’d say I’m already one though I refuse to admit to it. Haha!
It is true that we’ve all grown up. Still growing though because in life, there are stages that we have to pass and experience the later stages to understand more about life. When I was secondary 4, I used to think that sec 1 are noobs.. the elders know what I impt because of O level. As we proceed on to jc 1,I thought it was a new phase in life and I’m of higher grade than sec 4. Much cooler also because of the uniform and the thick books we carry in our arms when taking bus and train… oh… even cooler when walk along shopping malls such as Plaza Singapura. As I successfully move on to jc 2, I thought the j ones were dumb because they make noise during our impt year. But at the same time I felt I was dumb as well because I am ddoing last minute catching up and revision. But it all worth it because that’s the time you can at least try to rmb the sights and sounds while the days to Alevel were counting down. By then, it would have been end of school term and u’ll no longer a student.. a kid of a kind any more.
So as I left the school, and wandering here and there, at a loss dunno what to do because my grades were half a bucket ( in Chinese) I finally took up James Cook Uni Aus Sing.
During the first 2 yrs… you can say a lot of things had happened…tremendous changes were made in my life perspective as well as my own beloved srjc. haha
Met new friends, went through stress again and totally threw away the feelings and memories of how tough it was during the last few months of j2, struggling to catch up with my chem…
Ps.: In the end, my bio which was originally the best, became the worst out of the three core subj. all thanks to chem ah!. Wth!
So when I came back in 2007 as alumni member, I felt old. Like I no longer belong to srjc. Rather, I do not belong to the age of 17-18. Oh mygod!
What have I been doing these years?? I’m studying at 19.. 20…now 21 still studying… until 22.
Now that I’m an adult, going back made me felt like I cant connect with the kids anymore.
Perhaps I’ve missed out on a lot of my teenage years. But during the days of jc, I felt I was normal.. everyone’s normal because we are with our age group. I guess we felt that we’ve grown up.. know what we’re doing. Seriously!! We thought we’re cool.. we thought we’re special!!!
~Mika’s song- We are Golden starts playing~
We do not feel any oddities, no prob with mingling with people and what’s nice is.. .we have ccas to look forward to when homework is a bore, walk around school to look out for cute guys and to observe cool people. Oh. I also love walking the canteen. There used to be a lot of tables to accommodate to thousand of people but nowadays, its not seating but standing table. Canteen is a large open air area and many people would seat on the tables enjoying their breaks and lunch times and some would strum their guitar(love signs start popping out). Sometimes, class would gather and chit chat… a lot of social interaction happened at the canteen.
I used to have a lot of crushes when I was younger. It ranges from arts to sci stream and I even liked a guy next door. (class room that is)
But oh well.. that’s history.
Now my life seemed different. It’s no longer gathering of young friends kind of feeling.
It’s more of gathering of old frens whom I’ve not met for ages.. that in another words, means I’m old. My heart is no longer golden.. it’s rusty red…hha
Now I rarely meet up wit friends.. cant speak the same way a 20 year old girl.. or 21 … would speak…
Now I go online dating websites to meet friends.. go facebook to check out. .or if u want to say, stalk and keep updates of other people… it’s totally a life filled with no social interaction at all! Suddenly I felt Im a pathetic worm!
Talking abt interaction, I’m now so afraid of meeting people..because I’m scared that my straightforwardness is my weakness and I’ll make a fool out of myself next sat..
Yes I’m abt to meet up w this guy who’s 30 yr old?? I still cant believe that I got fren (male) of that age..
As in.. not usual hi bye.. but potential best fren that kind? Or bf that kind?? Gosh
All right.. I think I’m over imaginative.
Time to log off. ciao
Monday, October 19, 2009 10/19/2009 10:33:00 PM
lesson no. 54- 现实的人面让人作呕,hypocritical faces
They always say that the working world is full of dangers because they will betray you for their own benefits and back stab you when you least expect.
Oh well, you don't have to wait till you're in the working world, because now at tertiary education level, i've already feel it and sort of experienced it. I'm not going to name and names here because i hope that who ever reads ( no body would read of course) this post would think of their actions and not do that to others if they do not wish others to repay them the same way.
Or probably you can say that i'm sensitive. i tend to think people are capricious and full of motives.
Too many events of such kind happened to my dad. so i learnt that i shouldnt be too nice to people. people may be nice to you, but not totally. like someone i know, he(she) may be nice, but when it comes to teaching, there are some reserves.
For me, i know people are nt that nice.. so instead of teaching them all that i know, i reserve some of it. unless i know that person is someone i can trust.. and someone who will help me back when i need the help, i'll of course help that person. I'm someone who likes to 'teach' people what i know.. it gives me confidence. :D So it's good that a stone can kill two birds.
Getting help from you and not giving back the help you need is soemthing that's not good and in front of you smile and pretend to help you when you need help. This is hypocritical act. i dun like it at all!!!
The older we get, the wary are we against people whom we just know. Unlike when we wre young...like secondary school, there is no high level of guardedness. we are just like that as friends happily laughing at each other and so on... (although sometimes i dun feel that way.. becos it's just me).
ok.. after reading the above, probably you find it confusing. what is the lesson here? what'st he aim of this post?? Becos i dragged for quite a few days before i finish this, the idea might have lost..
but overall, don't give in and dun believe hypocrites.. how do we know?? just be wary at all times.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009 10/06/2009 10:48:00 PM
lesson no 53- i want Dream Angus, but instead i had sweet candy
Read a book (still reading) called Dream Angus. It's about a boy who gives people beautiful dreams.
I wish i could have him for at least once.
I wonder why recently i had been having nightmares ( erm.. those with good grammar, pls help me check if it's 'had been having' or what. thanks)
i cried twice for consecutively two days. and it's for the reason of my brother. despite telling him for his own good... he defied and even played a prank on me..
i wonder what does this signifies.
anyway.... on a happier note, there's a new shop called MADE IN CANDY (singapore)
yes.. it's the candy which you can customize your name or any name or pattern in that long sweet that is cut into smaller bits for you to suck. yes.. that kind of sweet is very hard but sweet and yummy.
Had it before at my dad's friend's son's wedding. they did it in aust and send it over. it's Tiara and Lance...
and saw it on tv once... and now.. it's right before us in Singapore!!! did a search cos i told my cousin abt it.. and realised that Central has stick sweet too!!!
http://www.sticky.com.sg/ B1-54/55
But back to United Sq where the shop is located... they do free demonstration 4 times a day everyday! and guess what?? the 3 bosses are guys who are young and handsome.. plus plus!!
they are chefs... and they went to aust to learn these skills!!! how coool is that????
talked to them and one of the bosses spoke to me in that cute accent.. i think it's american.. if i'm not wrong... but yeah!! it's so amazing!
young entrepreneurs are breaking into the market with themselves having the real skills. and their shop is not a big one.. but it's clean and clear enough. they have shelves to show case their JARS that are air tight to "protect their sweets" yes.. i quote from one of the bosses. and they had jars of different sizes... and they came allllllll the way from England.
cool right?? i bought a packet of 70g NUTTI POP and it cost $3.20. i think it's worth the price. with cute guys making the candy and doing demo 4 times a day.. it worthed their hardwork.
i think i'll go back to buy more.. and yeah on that pretext to talk to them more often and be friends... hehehe! anyway.. they said that they try to have an interaction with the customers and there's this guy who is the customer, is of a insurance company. he looks sooo young! and he became the bosses friends.. going in and out of the kitchen to check out. and they said they welcome anyone to do so. i'm so going in there to check out next time!
and that customer was the one who intro -ed me the nutti pop sweet.
their website's not up yet i supposed.. becos when i went in.. it's something else.
SO! CHECK OUT THEIR SHOP @ UNITED SQ, BASEMENT 1, NEXT TO THE FOOD COURT!
Saturday, October 3, 2009 10/03/2009 03:00:00 PM
no lesson today. haha!
had a great fri outing with benL. enjoying every moment of it eating desserts. sweet indulgence.
i think i've sorta 'recovered' from my depression. i was seriously depressed after i wrote my last post. and until now, i still occasionally recall the scary moments. even speaking with BL ytd, i felt my command of lang is pathetic
i need to start writing for my jocelyn wale's critique... and also my thesis... it seems like an impossible task. oh well the inferiority sets in again...
this made the whole thing worst after i know my stats result. sigh... i'm so afraid that when on the day of graduation, they dun read 1st class or 2nd class hons. but just a pass for hons.. how embarrassing.
maybe tmr or mon i will start my schedule... other local U reopening their school on 5th oct.. and their exams are coming up. i gotta work as hard as them...
oh ya.. i dreamt of my mom chasing me from my grandma's home (which is in msia) to my old house, to some fish market and some neighbourhood. i dunno why but whenever i dreamt of myself running, i always feel as if i cant run fast. and she's a good chaser. i hid myself in some chimney or some small fireplace under some neighbourhood, but it was too small to squeeze in.. so in the end.. kena caught by. what a luck...
:(
i guess i am running away from reality... subconsciousness made me dream of such bad dreams.