Monday, August 3, 2009 8/03/2009 03:42:00 PM
lesson no. 44-- are we selfish?
suddenly i got this feeling of being selfish. that thought had been bugging me since young.. and only recently on sat.. i felt selfish... i never thought i was until last sat.
are we by nature, selfish? or is it that it's nurtured? yes, no doubt we're back to this long debated question of nature vs nurtured.
but i think it's nurtured...only for selfish. since we're talking abt only just one thing here.
still remembered that i poured my dad's tea on my bro when we were young. i meant to scare him.. but i was kinda dumb, din know that the water would spill out. perhaps he has been very naughty since young.. or perhaps i was jealous that my mom was favouring him.
and although my mom said she loved me more than my bro... i still doubt becos he's after all a male ( the oedipus complex thingey or the male and female thing.. and he's better at sucking up to my mom.. lol.. ok... not that ugly, but he knows how to make my mom happy), he acts cute at times. (*shudders), he is younger...and he had been showered with care since young... so that results in the 'spare the rod, spoil the child' syndrome.
jealousy resulted because there is no equality... perhaps i'm more concerned over equality than say being a selfish person.. yes u would say that i'm being very thick-skinned to cover up for what i said of myself just now. muahahaha!
but i guess if we are not, we might put ourselves at the disadvantage... esp when the society has evolved from a innocent village to a scheming city. you have no choice but to keep certain good stuff to urself and let a bit to others.
so you would say something about, what about friends?
friends.. best frens.. would be ok.. and of course... check out their personality... if they are worth it. i think my frens worth it.. and being a very kind person, i tend to give way to pple.. and i somba!
pple may not feel it.. or may not see it... i gave all my best in treating them well. i meant well and sincere.
so is it nature? maybe.. but it can be taught.. well it's often seen as being taught.
'civilization' made us who we are... and yes ironically, we are so 'civilized' that we forgot about the virtues of give and take, share and no malice...