Sunday, March 1, 2009 3/01/2009 08:42:00 PM
lesson # 8-- why do we love
I read my friend's blog yesterday, and i realised how one can be so in their world of love that made them feel torturous if without their counterpart.
** i am not sure if the above sentence structure is grammatically correct...**
of course, he's so into a relationship that he's willing to sacrifice his sleep just to be with her...
then i ponder over his feelings behind the masked face... he is just so that fragile...
perhaps i was harsh and stupid to stab him with a jagged dagger, that left him thinking that i am unfriendly and brianless, and tactless....
i guess i was blind, to miss a potentially good friend just like that. Now that the ties between us has a knot becos it was once cut and tied up, i don't think we will be like before.
no more laughters.. well, instead, no more talking...
msn he didnt reply, msged him, he didnt reply....i wonder what's going in his brain...
perhaps the love relationship he's in hurt him and i'm like adding salt to his wounds..
Why do I even care about him? Why do human care for their peers? Why do we get to know people?
Why do we even get into relationship? Why do we love? Why do we sacrifice for those who are dear to us?
Why do i say 'why' to such shallow things when i could have said 'why' for my studies???
*angry with myself*
So WHY? becos we are human... becos we have amygdala, we have the fore brains, the occipital lobe and hippocampus.....becos we have all those brain structure......................
so why we love? to reward our hippocampus... i think..... i kinda forgot where is the rewarding part... of course ,to the standard of how our viewpoints are shaped and things we are exposed to.
so why do we sacrifice? Because we thought that by sacrificing oneself, that means gaining on the other side...
so why do i care about this friendship? because ... he's nice. because he's true, he's humourous and smart... and he's very gentleman. :)
so why do we love our friends? because they understand us, humour us, give wise words to us and stick by us when we are in trouble. these gratefulness made us feel that they are special.
But what about our family? same as above but we share the same traits same features, same blood... and more.......
saw Alyson's fotos on fb, she's 21 and her party was such a fun one!
families and relatives.. and friends..... oh my..
i wonder what kind of party will i do...
i want to have beach party....plus some food for thought... oh ..and of course games
but the people i'm going to invite are my friends who would fit the bill in playing games
how about relatives and family?? i wonder who i should call. cos i got sooooooooooo little relatives in singapore.
perhaps i shall re write my invitation list
paulvin family,
chachi family,
uncle baljit and family??
xiew li and ah beng uncle, shen shen and her three kids?
jiesheng and 2nd aunt.
ben yen, weiquan
annie,jesise,qy,wisnu, jy....perhaps rebecca's group...ya.. louis, esther, joel, corlizz, veronica???
(more to add), eric, jasmine?? these two i duno... then melissa, perhaps with her group of best friends like eileen, chris... lynette ng and group? How bout samantha ian and lynette?? i think i will... cos at least, i was once in their group. lol!
cy, hwee, jo, conrad, ws, xavier, handi, who else? can something knock my head to think?
adeline,simin, shyyan, yen-lin, rebecca, michelle, zeng xiong???, nicholas?? i dunno..
dinnie, shaun, jane?? i hope she is free..., who else am i close with in council???
den, i thought of inviting the alumni membersdeming, edson, chay lee, aikfong?/ all the old old pple? LOl!!! just joking just JOKING, JUST JOKING!!!
hahha!! ok, they are a bunch of great pple k?
den, yc......wilmer, jaspas--or justin u call him oh, do you think i shld invite the debators?? yeah.. i guess i will...gloria, lucas, angelina, hamzah,g lenn and kaiyim.. and tgt with ky, janessa...
so far, how many pple already, if i count my relatives and all... it's about 70..
wow! that's kinda many
If i dun organize any beach playing orientation game party.... but just dinner and games... i think i'll still stick to that pple i'm thinking of inviting...
ya.. i decided.. just wear really nice to my party.. and no more orientation games like jc times.
haha! kinda miss that...
right.. i started this entry like about 8 and still cant finish until now!
haha!
yeah..THEME?? perhaps... it's like, wearing nice clothes with colours that you think would suit the beautiful meadows , hills and trees...
haha!! that means, like those english show.. ah.. like the show 'sound of music'. elegant and very english?h hahahahah!!!
that means.. NO BLACK! white, pale yellow, pale green.., erm.. maroon?, grey?? i'll update on that when the time is nearer. loL!
gotta go! good night!