Monday, February 23, 2009 2/23/2009 01:23:00 PM
Lesson # 1--- living up to expectation
Right, of course i lied about not posting entries of my laments. i still want to blog abt my complains but in addition to the long post, i'll be giving pple some kind of lesson that we can all learn from. :D set?
went for the badminton session on sat night as a 'guest' and i told the chairman that i still cant get the rules right, or i said i forgot.... or i said i dunno....
so he said, "i'm surprised that you (play so long and) still dunno the rules."
That, i took it offensively...
sigh, i can go on cursing him cos of his bloody smug remark that puts people down. But i guess i just dislike him for the moment becos one ofthe so called coach said i need to polish my basic skills first..before everyone enjoys the game... of course, i cant play well. i sucked at playing badminton and i was clumsy. and it's sooo obvious that many people dislike playing with me.
i can teLL!!!!! damn it!
i needa find someone who's sooo willing, who's soo patient and nice to play badminton with.
before i go back to that bunch of people who are in their own group... yes.. social psych we all learn about groupings.... i forgot the word but it means that they dun want people who are not in the group to join in and they would protect themselves well from oddities.
yes, i will learn and prove to that old fat bloke that i can play too. yes that's when i can 'detest' that guy... argh. xiao mian hu. pretender..
So why the torture to go and learn and then go back there to mix around with people whom i cant click??? i guess it's kind of what chinese called 'gu qi'. i need to prove to him that i'm of a standard and not any ah gao, ah lian who goes there to smoke.
i dun like people who look down on me. i hated that kind of feeling. i can have a choice of not going back there. but i tot i would like to have more challenges in life, while i'm STILL young. hahah!!! that's why, i'm like starting to find work... while studying... and hope that i can cope.
i feel like i'm back to the 1900s, where there were a lot of expectations of someone... at any stage of one's life. at the age of 10, you're expected to behave.
at the age of 15, expected to do sewing and learn all those girly stuff while boys, becoming like a man, following dad to hunt, mow the lawn, chase the sheeps....
at the age of 21, girls were matched made and guys too. if not, further studies and helping out parents.
around age 24, working and be independent...
around 30, you gotta get married. and women ought to stay at home to clean the house... etc... guys...more responsible.....
however, girls nowadays, i feel that they need to be responsible for their own life. and not follow suit, that woman would need to stay at home.... this kind of expectation, hahha! we can just forget it...
most imptly living up to expectation would mean accepting challenges and make our lives more colourful.